I understand your sentiment my friend. I recently came out of a bit of slump and dark spot myself. Take solace in the fact that hardships in life come in waves, keep persevering and you will come out of this rough patch a better version of yourself. The fact that you’re writing is a good sign. Articulating your emotions through words is a very therapeutic method for resolving inner turmoils. If you ever need to reach out to someone don’t hesitate. You’re obviously a smart guy with an interesting perspective and those of us that follow you here on Medium are lucky to have you around!